Super Sunday

Hola Folks !

Mondays are such a slow starters that people(like me) take the opportunity for blog writing.
In fact as I was writing the above line , I realised that on the positive side , Monday is indeed a good opportunity for this. Chance to summarize the whole last workweek and also to word your weekends, at a time when moments are just starting to give way to consuming weekdays again.

So, What were my moments last week? Umm...Had a sleepy Saturday (Yes , don't have that disgusted expression,,people who leave at 6:30 am and return at 7:30 pm daily ought to have a full day sleep on Sats). Sunday was quite a fun though..We were going for Agneepath...Yes Hrithik starer Agneepath and by 'we', I mean me and my friend Sherry...(though his habits be somewhat like a girl(Oops! sorry sherry, I know you don't read this!) but he is a boy..). Of course, we both were very excited. I was quite excited as it was a long time since my last movie outing specially a hit one. Though the intensity of Sherry's excitement was only evident to me when we were eating burgers at McDonald , waiting for the show and he told me that he forgot to collect the change from bus conductor.(40 bucks, no big deal!)

Anyways, the movie started quite well specially the entry of Lord Voldemort Senior a.k.a. Kaancha Cheena...Damn Man! He was looking seriously evil.. In that Black, death eater's wear and with that bald look along with horrific beats in background.... Roaring claps, screams and whistles could be heard all around. Gradually as the movie unfolded, one could see the difference in scripts of both Agneepaths. Though the plot was still same and the flow was easily predictable. Sanju baba did look menacing but more work could have been done in dialogues writing and dialogue delivery. Also, after initial few shots his role came to lights only in the climax.In terms of acting, I would say everyone performed average with Rauf Lala a.k.a. Rishi Kapoor leading the pack. Though the movie was long enough but it engaged pretty well. Even then I think the length could have been shortened. Sets and locations were perfect according to plot and music is suiting the situations. Hrithik has performed well but certainly not his best performance. Movie was a one time watch surely.

Overall, I would agree with ratings it received(3/5). Also agree to the fact that it was a remake and so the plot advantage was easily lost. Even after being so long and too predictable(not director's fault), it was enjoyable with some scenes raising adrenaline levels and some raising throat choking emotions...the song by Sonu Nigam...Ab mujh mein kahin..being the one such phase...

While coming back, sherry would have been a Man of Joy..as his ticket loss got somewhat relieved when the conductor didn't ask us for tickets(Yes, even we didn't bothered to ask him). Now, generally a man of honesty I am ;-) , but someone has said "Eent ka jawaab paththar se dena chahiye", that being a different issue who gave 'Eent' and who got 'paththar'..as far as we were concerned they both were conductors.

At home, when I was fighting hard to avoid sleep(If you sleep in afternoon, you wake at night and cant wakeup at 5 next morning...) I realized that I was missing something and it didn't took long to switch to Australian Open finals. Feels so good when you are a Live witness to match of history. Yes , that's what I'll call it. That's what everybody is calling it. The longest Grandslam finals ever. 5 hours 53 minutes...Are you joking!..and hell of a nail biter..
Djoker beat Rafa 5-7 6-4 6-2 6-7 7-5 and during the course of the game I was unable to decide whom to support as I am a sport lover not star lover(doesn't holds true in case it's cricket).
At the end of fourth set though after a great comeback by Rafa , I thought it would be his day but that's what they call unbelievable .. after every point, you couldn't say whose cake it was...
Audience were quite clearly the winner..to watch such matches is a feast...

Slowly, my super Sunday faded into darkness with delicious 'aloo matar gobhi'( ok I'm lying, we couldn't find matar in market..) as I prepared for a Routine Monday.

Writing blog on Monday is surely fine but you gotta be careful because as I am about to finish this I have been caught by my manager 4-5 times. Now I wish, he is a fan of literature(:-( which I'm sure my blog isn't an example of)
Anyway, a good time pass till lunch.
Seeya All!
Signing Off !

Back in Business !

Hey People !

It's been a long time since my last post and here I am again with a hope to be regular. Well , this time it's different because I am going to be regular.

Firstly, wanted to share with you all- I switched. Ya , "switched" thats what they call shifting companies in software industry. Since getting into Infosys , It was a plan , must have been a plan of every friend of mine and by God's grace it got executed early than even I expected.

On December 08 , when 2011 was drowning in its dusk , finally I got something. And that was an offer from Samsung India Software Operations. Certainly not my destination but surely it's the path leading to it. All in all, now people can expect something more from my blog posts. It's not that I'll leave analysing things n life but it's just that I'll be more regular now and so therre would be a lot of variety in my posts.

How was my frist day at Samsung , well it was great.
For someone who has been around some of the best architectural marvels in india or in world(read Infosys) , Samsung's building was not a cake from outside but as I have always believed (in case of humans too)- It's not the outward appearance that decides who you are but it's the inner self , values and character that defines you.

Truly so , after entering at the first sight , it seemed that knowledge was flowing in air. On face value people looked intellectual(Yes , somethings can be made out from outward appearance as well ;-))
and since that moment , till now it's been a different world.
Free breakfast , lunch , dinner and transport alonwith some good gifts , policies and most important of all - cutting edge technology, gadgets , systems and super consuming , intelligent work. To detail everything in a single post would be an injustice to it.

In March 2007 , I alongwith some friends(whom I happen to meet at IIIT) were among some of the most deserving students of this country- that was the ground zero, but then some incidents changed life. Some people went to IIT's and some managed an extra 'I'. It need not be said what life became but as of now seeing the people around me , from all spheres(IIT's , IIIT's , NIT's and REC's)I can say that I am again back to ground zero.
In past there were mistakes I made but now it's a new starting , new race.
It can be felt that I am kind of obsessed with this IIT setback but I accept I am,
ask people who suffer.But now atleast some part of that is washed. One day I pledge it will be all over.

One thing was very clear to me from the starting that - I deserved to be in IITs
but from few years there's one more thing has occupied my mind , instead say it's been a kind of hidden goal - IIT's didnt deserved me, I am much more than an IITian.
Ladies & Gentlemen this will be proved in due course of time.

So , as they say that not every great comes from an IIT , so be it proved once again for Siddharth Saxena is back in business.

Obstacles-Thinking -Confusion-Focus!

Hey Everyone !
Voila!

Feels nice to be back. Long time...
At last this frequent blogger gets some time , time for introspection...

Well , this time live from the beautiful city of Mysore(I'm afraid I've seen much of it at this point).
Anyways , the weather is awesome...Cloudy Days , Nice cool breeze and 'pleasantly warming sunshine' in mid of Jun , well that's something in the era of Global Warming.

Tantamount to this is the Campus. No , No..Don't take it in the wrong way! I 'have' completed my graduation successfully with 8.2 CGPA(:-))
and even entered the next course of my life.
and this course starts at Infosys Ltd. Mysore - My first employer.

Lots of questions , very less answers...lots of thoughts and so much of thinking...
(Ahh! don't get confused , that's normal with me)

I must say sorry for writing my experiences and sharing my thoughts here at blogger but actually I'm not sorry because I've got this space from Google , and neither anyone is forced to go through it.
It's like a "free ki advice".
So , I guess there's no problem in using blogger as your personal(well not totally personal) diary , especially when there are not many followers to intervene your personal space. So now we have an understanding.

Talking about my thoughts and feeling these days..I'm feeling...feeling...Ahh! I wish somethings could be expressed in words...(and somethings could be written at Blogger).
So , about Infy..Well great place to be , awesome campus coupled with totally harmonious weather and what not.
but the hell of the irony is that... I'm not comfortable...I'm not happy...Ya! hard to accept but that's the truth. It's not what I wanted.
Took me one whole week to be fine with this environment.

I wonder , it's so hard... a person is tested at every moment and the level is a monotonously increasing function in terms of difficulties.
It's a mental game...
I don't know what I'm writing right now...but my mind is not stable and it will not be till I achieve what I want...
It's hard for me to pass this phase...my every cell(of the body) is in total disagreement , totally uncomfortable to be here and it's very hard for my mind to control things.
This place has everything one can dream of but still I don't know why I am feeling like this.

Lots of distractions here , very hard to focus. But as fighter i am doing my bit.
Life has undergone positive changes in these few days.
waking up at 6 o'clock and reaching to classes before time was a bygone story in my life for four years but it's happening again.

It's very hard to concentrate , to focus on the objectives , I've set for myself..
Sometimes I am totally lost but then I am able to find a way.
I have to walk this way now , and regretting things will only make my journey slower.
At 21 years of age one can expect many chances from life , only from now on I'll be serious about them. I've to do justice to myself.

I guess I should stop now. Reading this sometime later would only tell me how confused I was , like lost in a jungle...
but aren't we all?? lost in a jungle...in search of what...
that needs to be figured out and important is that you figure it out early , early enough to live that dream.

Lots of things still to be figured out for me.
Focus is the key.
I pray to God to give me that strength to keep in my mind those goals , those objectives that I set and not fall prey to the circumstantial distractions.

I promise to myself that I will focus.
I will concentrate and save myself from all other distractions.

Not feeling right
and so signing off !
Siddharth

The Last Vacations ???

Once upon time , a long time ago a promise was made but eventually it was broken by somebody.
That somebody, a follower of the deadly lethargic forces (thus, a true Indian !) , is ...
Is??
Well , you don't need to be a diehard suspense- thriller fan for making that somebody out.
Obviously that's me and I , still , am not able to be regular in updating this place , which I promised long ago.

I guess there's no point worrying about that now because , given I am an engineer , it's hard to find time for such activities.(Now , If you feel this reason hard to believe then let me tell you , it is indeed normal to feel so because I bluffed you just now.)
Actually, the real reason is that I don't want to degrade the quality of my blog postings by writing the daily (not so much happening) happenings. Instead, it is better to cover up the gist of it. So , now it’s time to get over with the explanation part which is meant mainly for my personal satisfaction as there are not so many avid readers of my blog and I am also in no mood to use my marketing skills over this issue. It won’t feel good if anybody accuses me of robbing their valuable time by making them to read this as I know not many will wish to dedicate time for 'things' , things which I keep pondering over.
Though I believe , there is a stage when a man(and a woman also...no wait! , something's wrong , okey ‘some woman’ suits better...) does question 'things' and tries to find answers to them.

So, I get this wonderful chance to meet my all imagined readers from my home. It feels great to be at home and it feels great to be in Delhi.(No, please, not for that particular reason!)
Seriously Delhi rocks ! and being here in my favorite season of the year feels awesome. Lately , I have had some problems with 'Dilli ki sardi'.I guess four years being far away has jammed my immune system so that when I was coming in the train (without any blanket , bedsheet , and in a single sweater) the armed forces of cold attacked me. Many posts got captured. Perhaps my ears & bronchioles are captured even now. Though my forces have started picking power as they are now fed with healthy , spicy and tasty home cooked food. Steaming momos and hot soups do serve a helping hand.
So talking about home , it is really convenient when you know where to find what. There is every place , every street food (chat , golgappa , momos...) for your every mood. That’s why we all feel blessed at home. All hometowns are so comforting to their respective natives.
But still , Delhi does Rocks ! such a happening city it is.

On Last Sunday , I finished two more MBA entrances with only the last one remaining now. It excites me a lot when I think what is going to happen after four months. Last semester of my Btech. I feel nostalgic but also all the more enthusiastic about future. It is going to be a new world again , just like four years ago but this time it is the real battlefield , not just a practice arena where your mistakes are forgiven at no cost. I don't know if they are in this real world or not , have to wait for that but I think mistakes are not forgiven anywhere without paying the costs. It just depends on the rules of the game to determine how big the crime is.

In my younger days(When I was a little kid I mean..) , talking to your teacher in a loud voice , criticizing them would have easily attracted a slap or two from him/her with a guarantee of good beating back at the home from the parents as well.
Now, I see people doing it easily. Though we must criticize the flaws in the system in a mannered way but I see students taking it to another level, for instance In Delhi(perhaps in whole country now) , there is a law that a teacher cannot physically harm you , can't slap you in another words. I remember an incident from my class X when some students were making nuisance in the class , when the teacher came to them to stop them they started insulting, even abusing him. He was exasperated by them. I could see the intense anger in his eyes , his jaws tightly clinched together yet he was just staring on the chuckling students helplessly.
I was shocked , it was the first of its kind incident for me and that day I realized that maybe 'Guru' had become obsolete in the dictionaries of man.
For us teacher is a person who takes money , is forced to take classes , is a duffer who was unsuccessful at other career options and so chose to be a teacher. People go there , take notes , abuse him after the class (even if the content he was teaching was boring itself).
Do we ever wonder that he is a teacher - he 'teaches' us.
Now I know that you are having an ocean of words waiting right there at your tongue's tip and so let me clarify that I’m not being a partisan. I know the other side also , you don't get dronacharya everywhere but you even don't get Eklavya everywhere and I bet you may not find 1 eklavya in 10000 students but a dronacharya will be there in 100 teachers.
So , it is quite easy to go on inventing essays of abusive statements for your grey haired , large spectacled professors but just try to think how difficult is their job to satisfy the doubts of ever curious modern population. Ask anyone out there about their ambitions and you already know , whether a boy or a girl , you'll not find the word teacher in their ambitions.
We should not try to see Drona in every teacher , because the true worth of a teacher can be recognized by a true student only.

Well , it is strange , right now I'm flowing with thoughts and can discuss this issue , infact debate over it (not supporting any particular side).
So , this is how strange things get part of my blog. I write anything when im in the mood and so writing the blog in that perfect state of mind makes me less regular with blogging. This spontaneous quality of mine can help me do wonders rather this is not spontaneous I must say , somewhere at the back of mind , I do muse over this kind of stuff.

Getting back to home talks , it is quite boring at times not having all those Masala talks with your friends.
Movies serve a good method of time pass along with the master creation of Mr. Zuckerberg but still it sucks to get wired in for such long periods.
This is awkward , while my friends , like always , some don't disturb me at all(Engineers never take pains...) and some can't be disturbed by me(constraints , you see...). ;-)
Well , there are benefits of having 6 exams in 6 days. though there are the dis-ads. also but I would hide them deep inside me right now , to make a few people feel a bit jealous.

In a day or two , placement activities will begin in the campus. Farewell time approaching, Aww! I'll miss my friends but fine lets enjoy our last sem to the fullest , I know we are gonna rock in the coming months.
May be these 15 days are my last vacations for which there is no issue of salary deduction.
Maybe ! Who knows whats next !

Signing Off
for today

Siddharth , on the way of being
Siddhartha

'Picture Abhi Baaki Hai Mere Dost'...

Whew! Long time Huh ? So , at last I'm back with my favorite pastime - observing , analyzing and deciphering life.
Just recently talking to someone i realized ' Oh Man! - you have a blog and you promised to be regular but it turned out that I too got too involved in the 'Moh- Maya' tasks of this world.
Well owing to a few good deeds , I might have done sometime back (these days I'm the paapi no. 1)and obviously the to the good wishes of family & friends , I got my dream Run - Tour de Japan.
Quite a nice experience , it just gave a new dimension to my thoughts ,damn disciplined people , huge respect for them , with this trip I made a promise to myself that my next turn would be with my family and that too ASAP.

Soon after coming back I was greeted with a minor accident (with God's grace my mother's new pleasure got only a few scratches) , learnt that speeding and overtaking can 'sometimes' be injurious to driving and then once again started - my hot affair with a femme-fatale , so what if that female was named Anopheles and she gifted me 'Plasmodium Vivax ' , nevertheless it just cost me to smell some high dose medicines with a loss of few kilos(this was positive actually - saved me from being a laughter subject at the hostel).

Then happened a Deja-Vu , which has been happening since the first sem. , it occurred to me that the current semester was the heaviest loaded one , so it was actually , but who cares ? neither do teachers nor do I.
Subsequently I broke my own and made new records of bun-'king' with my closest of friends giving a tough competition.
Consequently , after midsems - I was at the 'top' - when viewed normally( in one course) , and when viewed upside down (in two courses) , rest all were average.
Though I'm not so worried about that ,(after all to be a 'Baazigar' , first requisite is to screw few of the papers).

My mind is really perplexed these days...taking all the stress that I can handle so as to be cool at the CAT day.
Meanwhile , Ayodhya , CWG - all passed by. Loved CWG and for Indian media I have only one thing (..|..) , filthy people can't respect anything , they would cut their own head to generate news...I'm not going in the details now (If anyone wishes to debate , contact me personally).
All in all very happy with both the issues , CWG & Ayodhya both went well off. But theres a man I would kill if given a chance , horseshit flows in his veins, that idiot kalmadi , don't how much tax they would deduct from my first salary to make up for what he ate.

Circumstances are such that I don't even have the time to feel the seconds passing by ..Oh ! just remembered I completed 21 this year...officially now I can run and marry someone (definitely female)(sorry but this is the only one special privilege one gets at being 21) but time doesn't even permits this..(moreover there's no one out there) so its all CAT - CAT and meow.
Its very strange that I have managed to wake at 6 o'clock despite sleeping at 2.(dont think that I study , I brush , open the book & then my eyes open at 9 o'clock.)

Well jokes apart , From the heart ,I'm really feeling very lonely this time , luck is not going , just cant feel happiness around me , that Lively aura of me is missing somewhere...
I know its a temporary phase ,I'll overcome it 'but' ...this time I have no answer for this 'but'..
Hope things will be fine sooner than later. Seriously in need of an encouragement & damn good inspiration.
Its really absorbing , complexities have increased so have responsibilities , after all its 21 now , I desperately need the way out of this desert , but this time I don't have answers - and even worse I don't have the time to look for them.
Deep down in my mind , I know all this is just a starting , a trailer b'coz 'Picture Abhi Baaki Mere Dost' ...

'I'll Fight Back' and thats what I call the typical Siddharth's attitude.

Signing off
Fighter

Truce

Another semester over.
The battle comes to a truce , though provisionally , but a precious time to rethink your strategies.
Strange I feel when I gaze through the window of past. It feels like just yesterday I came here for the first time , and so soon its going to get over , just another year and I'm through my Graduation.
Wow! I can feel the load of the statement but I think am I ready , do I have worthwhile arsenal to rush to the battle field.
I don't know whats awaiting me there , no one ever knows the future , but the golden strategy is : Hope for the best but Prepare for the worst.
Verily, I feel confident as well as excited to showcase my prowess.
The three years away from home , three years of a new life have provided golden experiences to me.
Though I know that the circumstances or say the 'calamities' are not the same at every stage of life but what's important is each experience highlights one strength and weakness simultaneously.
The person who quickly grasps the demand of any complex situation that occurs in future and does not repeats his mistakes , overcomes his weakness and makes himself sturdier is the wise one.
As I always believe that when in a problem or a patch of trough in life , one should
not curse the self , should not blame the Gods , should not panic , there is no need to mourn but what the situation demands is serenity and nonchalance.

It is difficult to do so but practice makes a man perfect (and a woman too) and I have changed my outlook to problems by practicing over two years.

Well , now is the time to refresh and rejuvenate and prepare gameplans for the times ahead.
Also , I am very excited about the Japan tour next month. Lucky enough to hit at the right time to cement my spot in the 15 member team to Japan from our institute.
My parents are very happy and so am I because thats all what I desire the most - happiness of my loved ones.

So...
here I sign off for today , hoping to be regular now , but I request all that if by mistake anyone likes my postings then please follow my blog.
I always need encouragement and trust me I have many experiences and beliefs that I am sure you all will like to share.

God be With You !

Solid Defence - More Infliction

Hello Folks
getting over is another day of the year and coming tomorrow are another hopes...
And here we are back with some serious thinking business.
Today lets talk about life - surely life isn't serious but requires serious analysis.
I hope that all will agree that life is never the same always - just like a flowing river. It has crests and troughs , ups and downs.
What we need to do during the crests we need not talk about it...
we all wish that this time stays forever but the flow is turbulent , there are depressions so , during those we fight hard to gain the heights again or I should say we strive for the pursuit of happiness.
But lets talk about that particular , very special state , in general linguistics known as 'The Hardships'.

Well just think you get a job of $ 10k a month , how would you feel?
you will be happy , obviously you will be , you parents would feel proud of you , by seeing this - their happiness , again you will be more happy.
you will spend on things you have coveted for long.
you would probably get the latest sedan in the market or a thunder sonic bike , your status in the society will be lifted, and eventually people will be envious of you.
thats all or can be a thing or two more but that would only exaggerate your bliss.

well I can feel how elated you would be feeling right now after reading these lines but wait , lets dive a little deeper.

All the above mentioned phenomena is very common to you , to me and to everyone out there I suppose.
Now , I want to judge a person , his will power , his positivity , his persona , his mettle.
the question is can I?
How can I?
Everyone is happy for getting a job of $10k a month.

To solve our purpose lets try to frame a solution by pondering over the contrary side.
The Hardships.--------------
I work damn hard , with diligence and skill.
I give my full to every task I undertake.
I land up with no job or say a job of $100 a month which is far under what I deserve.

What I should do?
(Now be careful)
Have a look what Mr. A,B,C and S do...

Mr. A
I lose hope , I am depressed .I curse myself for being such an asinine.I feel indignation for god. I yell at back of my boss, my colleagues.
I keep normally now in a sulky mood.
I shout at everyone , there is no justice in this world.
To hell with everyone! To hell with this world! What a Fish !

Mr. B
Oh my god , I cant believe this . No this is impossible , I mean see him man , he does not has even 10 % of my potential and earns about 100 times that I do.
Disgusting!
Why I studied? Why I did not slept for nights and days?
Why , When everyone was having a carousal ,I was swimming in the books ? Why I was Supplicating to GOOGLE ?
Why?
There is no place for me in this world.
I am ruined .
Everything has finished.
SO , I QUIT!
BANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BREAKING NEWS : A XYZ GRADUATE , Mr. B , COMMITS SUICIDE .



Mr. C
Oh Man! this should not have happened.
Where I left any stone unturned ?
Well but now there is no point beating about the bush , so lets get on with what I have got.
If this is the result of working hard then its good not to.
So many problems I overcame.
So many hardships I suffered.
Still the consequence is this.
Perhaps I am not skillful enough.This is my destiny.


Mr. S
Whew! not a price which I deserve but nevertheless something is much better than nothing. Its good that I would gain some experience while I can make more plans for a bright future and lets get to know the firm , who knows there can be a growth potential that I can explore take the organisation to heights.
Lets show them what I have got in bags for them and I will also get to apply my knowledge and explore the real world difficulties so that I can be careful in future.
I have worked hard and hard work pays , though a little late sometimes but it does pays.
I got to be patient and look for the doors of opportunities.
Lets get ready!


So folks !
Were you able to see the difference?
Were you able to make any judgments?
Which one you would like to be?

Well any one you choose but the point I wanted to make clear I suppose I have done justice.
It is the tough times in which a man is tested , same applies for a woman also!
Moreover, there is one more observation I would like to share.

You study i class V
you give the examination and are promoted to class VI.
now again in the final examination I give you class V paper.
What happens?
A fish for you!
but you did not got the chance to practice the things you learned in standard VI.
Now if go on giving you a class V paper every year would you learn anything ?
you would become pampered and unaware of the parlous difficulties that exist in the world.

Now, try to think on parallel lines...
If you overcome a hardship , a suffering you are made stronger , you learn how to handle pressure situations.
You become perspicacious.
Thus , you unlock the next level of problems , difficulties , hardships in your life.
You master them also and then again the higher level is reached.
The loop goes on - "STRONGER YOUR DEFENCE , YOUR RESISTANCE BECOMES , MORE SUFFERINGS TURN YOUR WAY"

The key is not to lose hope but to hit hard in face of every difficulty , to implement what you have learned at every level.
But then how I become happy?

You are happy at every level itself because you achieve something on passing a level.
Aren't you happy on being promoted to class X.
the degree of happiness or say the result in our example depend upon how hard you hit the boulder.
How well you handle pressure , how you maintain you cool , how much positive you are.

With great Defence comes great pains but also great achievements.
So that at last , in life , the higher the levels you have unlocked , the more you have achieved.

The whole world remembers you forever.
Your name becomes immortal.
You appear as an inspiration in millions of textbooks worldwide.
This is eternal glory.

So never be frustrated that your sufferings and hardships are going on incessantly.
but try to focus on the other side , your achievements , be proud for them , be happy to get them.

Life has two parts - one to be lived , enjoyed with your loved ones and the other to be dealt with valor and mettle.
Learn to be resilient.

I hope reading this would have motivated you.
It does the trick for me.

Do not fear , Only be Lively!